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Rachel Teresa Wilson
Artist | Professional | Photography
United States
Current Residence: Atlanta Georgia
Favourite genre of music: Mine.
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams, Henri Cartier-Bresson, Manuel Álvarez Bravo, André Kertész, and Annie Le
Favourite style of art: fffound.com
Operating System: OSX
MP3 player of choice: Ipod Shuffle
Shell of choice: Flannel
Wallpaper of choice: Henna
Skin of choice: Boys for Pele
Favourite cartoon character: Gilgamesh
Personal Quote: "..... I liver elipses"
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I've never been so grateful for the reality I live in and complain about every day....so I guess that's good.
I don't know how I forgot my second go enough to ever give a third a chance...
The first was fine... it was beautiful and cool even vaguely poetic The others were absolutely terrifying because I knew how far away from sanity I was and how painful it would be to be stuck there eternally... the only thing close I can compare this to is having a super asleep limb and being concerned at it taking so much time to tingle into normality.... and when I say "I've been here before" or "that these places are common ground" I literally feel that those exact notions and terrifying spots are a community place that everyone who plays too close can end up in and here I was in on like my fourth or fifth visit..i felt so bad and so guilty because I had to use your faces to pull back in to life and to know I was real and to know there was an existence that could be pleasant again... and afterwards when I was completely in the clear I felt so ashamed for pulling us back to that place again.. I felt like I was being so dramatic and hurt and that the two of you were having to suffer my insanity...  the general theme for the night was "oh fuck" and "please let this not be real" and I don't know how to explain to you what it was that was so bad except that I felt like consciousness had left me behind (literally walked away and forgotten about me) and this is how I imagine hell to be... oblivion surely has to be the realm of misunderstanding if happiness and feeling good derives from thinking well then understanding is my ecstasy so in essence this drug is the complete opposite of Ecstasy because there is nothing but confusion and vagueness and a complete lack of capacity to do anything...be anyone.....or to perceive..
I'm thinking I may need to revel in a clean living and emotional stability through my understandings of reality for a while...
I'm sorry...

Again..don't reply to this box..  

"Anybody can sympathise with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathise with a friend's success."
Oscar Wilde, The Soul of Man under Socialism (1881)
  • Mood: Alarmed
  • Listening to: silence

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:icondan-the-man28:
Dan-the-Man28 Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2008
Your gallery is amazing! I can't believe your talent is not appreciated enough :X
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:iconkkasabian:
kkasabian Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2008  Student
yah it's been so long. umm just the usual; school and work full time. sleepy. how about you?
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kkasabian Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2008  Student
hey rachel; holy shit how are you?
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:iconfloydshayvious:
floydshayvious Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2008
-NOM NOM NOM-

You doing alright?
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floydshayvious Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2008
Here. Absorbed in school work.

I can be pretty anti-social.
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walkingOnBrokenGlass Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2008   Photographer
thank you :heart:
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kaoru-kamiya Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks for the fav! :D
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driany Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2008
Thanks for all those favs :3
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captain-amazing Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2008  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks :)
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FelixKlee Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2008
Hey Rachel thank you for all the favourites and the kind words :hug:
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